9.12.10
8 Nov
I turn down the aisle in CVS that I’ve been frequenting for 9 months. Snatching up ovulation predictor kits and home pregnancy tests, checking out the Pre-Seed, and considering fertility monitors. I grab a brand I’ve never used before, repeating in my head “I don’t want this to be anything like the last time.”
I get in the car and feel knots in my stomach. I don’t remember ever being this nervous to test. Jim is standing in the bathroom as I pee on the stick. So romantic.
One line starts to form: “Are you fucking kidding me?” Moments later: (in the sweetest voice ever) “Oh wait, there’s another line!”
Three jumps in the air. Hugs, tears, and a few “thanks gods.”
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Gosh, that seems like a long time ago. Today I am just over 12 weeks along. Two months will drag when you’re only a little pregnant, especially for the second time in the same year. Minutes creep by as you always seem to be waiting for blood work results, ultrasounds, upcoming appointments and general signs from the universe that everything will be okay (for me, they never come).
I’ve wanted to tell you sooner, knowing that I’d tell you all if I suffered another loss. But we haven’t even told the world yet…and by the world, I mean some family members and close friends are finding out by reading this. In the next 2 weeks, we’ll start sharing the news. I’m hoping time will begin to move faster. I know some women want to savor every moment of pregnancy, but after a loss, this is no picnic.
We both did our “coming out” today!!!
eeek. for us.
I am so happy for you that I want to cry.
Wait, since I gave birth to a little you, does that mean you’re going to give birth to a little me??
Preachin’ to the choir, sister.
BTW, I’m so so so happy for you!
: )
You made my night! I am over the moon for you guys and am sending strong fetus thoughts your way.
Hooray for the Hippo!
Much love and hugs. YAY!
That is brilliant news!
Super happy, great news!
such wonderful news! congratulations!! don’t worry, momma. you think the first two months moves slow? wait until you’re as big as a house and your due date is STILL two months away! Haha.. as much as I wished those days away- I secretly can’t wait to do it all over again!! xx
I’m so incredibly happy for you both
congratulations!!!
Thank you so much everyone! XO
Congratulations!!!!!! I am so happy for you!
xoxo
congratulations, brave mama!
it is an amazing journey fraught with wonder, peril, and worry…savoring the journey at every moment would be lovely…however, i have found usually the best i can do is be present and aware…my reflection and summation comes after in the quiet moments when every one is asleep and i breathe easier
all i know is you face it one moment at at time, no matter what, and you will, too
keep talking and writing–all the support you need is out there/here in our collective motherhood
wow- i only just got caught up on this entry and it looks like i missed a lot! congratulations on the happy and special news. baby’s continued growth is in my thoughts. <3