Blue Friday
5 Feb
Never in my life did I imagine that Fridays would be more difficult than Mondays. The luster of eye makeup, fancy shoes and dining out dulls when I know that they won’t be accompanied by a cocktail of my choice. Staying in has been the most effective method for dealing with sobriety. If I can just get through these dreary winter months, I have to believe that it’ll all get easier by the time the season changes over. Then again, I’m only supposed to be thinking about today
Hang in there! Every day is a milestone…every day counts…everyday matters…you are doing so well (you are absolutely rocking it!) YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!
Thanks Absolutely! So I shouldn't delete all of my Facebook friends that are talking about how much they're drinking tonight!? Ha.
LOL Well maybe just a couple…
Just curious…how are you filling your time when you're not working? As in, what do you do in the evenings when you would have previously been going out to a dinner or a bar or whatever? This is something that I struggle with, especially because I work at home (like you). I want to WANT to stay home, but I don't know what to do with myself because I was already there all day!
A, I have a trick. I do not wake up early : x
When I first got laid off, I kept a normal schedule. Which meant it was so easy to declare myself ready for a drink at 5, then 4. Sometimes, with lunch. I am not a morning person, so I decided to stop beating myself up about it. I wake up when I wake up – between 9-10:30. I work through until dinner. Stopping before dinner for a workout. Then, I resume working. I work until 8, sometimes, 9 or 10pm. This way, by the time I am done, the night is over and thoughts of drinking are long gone.
As far as going out, I do go out to work 2-3 days a week. I will go to the library or one of 3 coffee shops with wireless in the area. This gives me a reason to get dressed, look cute and get out.
Interesting…that sounds like a good strategy! I wake up at 7:45 or so, which is around the time my boyfriend is up. I think I get up then because I feel guilty that I can hang out at home all day in my stretch pants while he has to put on a dress shirt and go in to the office. I start working at 8:15 or so and go through 'til 3:30, when I go the gym. But then I get home at 5:00 or whatever, and the whole evening stretches in front of me like this interminable void of time to fill. And let's face it…there's isn't that much good TV on. So maybe I need to shift the schedge a little. I could deal with waking up at 10:30!