Is She Alive Pt. 2
27 Aug
This post wasn’t quite finished – but I felt any further explanation would have just rambled on. I planned on coming back to it the next day, but then it finally happened. I fell in love with my Lu. It was as if coming to the realization that my miscarriage was the reason I wasn’t connecting with my new puppy allowed it to happen. I talked it out with Jim, typed it all up, slept with the issue on my mind and woke up to finally accept this little cutie as my own.
Just because my baby died doesn’t mean everything else around me will (including Jim when he drives in the rain. I seriously kept him from going out one day because it was pouring and I had a bad feeling). Lucy is here, she’s adorable and sweet, and she’s mine. Just as JJ is my handsome little boy, she’s my pretty little girl. I love her and I know that she isn’t going to leave us for a very long time.
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Yesterday Jim asked me if I realized how different our lives would if I was still pregnant. Well, duh. He went on to explain that if I we hadn’t lost Lemon, he wouldn’t be starting grad school and we wouldn’t have Lucy. I asked him if he’d trade those things to have Lemon back.
“Of course I would, but these are two great things we have and one day soon, when we have our baby, we won’t be singing the same tune.”
I know that he’s right. Just hurry up, one day soon.
Jim is right you know.
And LL is very cute – you cna’t help but love her
It sounds like Jim is very wise.
that hubby of yours is a pretty smart and amazing guy! You are so lucky to have each other.
Thank you for stopping by and for your kind words!
“Just hurry up, one day soon.” That resonates with me so much.