The Lucky One

24 Jul

My one and only meeting with a therapist included a discussion regarding alcoholism in my family. When I told him that my sister did not have a problem with drinking he replied, “So you’re the lucky one.” I laughed because I thought he was being sarcastic. Then he said “One day you’ll realize that.” Even though I had no idea what he meant, it intrigued me. Why was I lucky for having inherited the disease?

Today, when writing to a friend about our struggles with trying to conceive, I thought about what that therapist said. Writing, “Perhaps we are the lucky ones after all.”

Reflecting on this has been what’s getting me through today. Hopefully I can hold onto this…this realization of just how amazing my relationship will be with our eventual baby. Not a single day, a messy-faced kiss or even a poopie diaper will be taken for granted. I imagine cuddly moments wherein I tell my little one how they were a long awaited dream come true.

I dreamt about being a mommy my whole life.  When I met Daddy we learned that we shared the very same dream. Then one day, our little dream came true. That dream was you.


6 Responses to “The Lucky One”

  1. Rebecca 24. Jul, 2010 at 4:45 pm #

    Love this post!!!!! Can’t wait for the day you guys finally get your little lemon. You will be the most amazing parents ever!

  2. Brooke 25. Jul, 2010 at 9:43 pm #

    thank you darling!

  3. kamila harris 27. Jul, 2010 at 6:47 pm #

    aww!

    i do think sometimes that having experienced hardship makes you appreciate the good times that much more

    thank you for sharing your thoughts even though it must be so difficult, my heart breaks for you guys, and yet with every post you continue to be a huge source of inspiration

    i can’t wait for the day you tell us that you’re pregnant and that everything is going amazingly well

  4. Amanda Hinski 21. Sep, 2010 at 9:18 pm #

    One day you’ll (we’ll) probably see a lot of this stuff as things to be grateful for (“lucky” doesn’t really seem right, though). Just don’t go referring to yourself as a “grateful recovering alcoholic.” I enjoy reading your blogs and would hate to have to stop ;-)

  5. Brooke 21. Sep, 2010 at 9:25 pm #

    Grateful? After the year I’ve had? As if!

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