You May See Results in Just 8 Weeks
5 May
8 weeks ago, I wrote the following:
Today sucked. My body is (for lack of a better term) completely spazzing out. Completely. From my brain down to my crampy midsection and aching lower back. I made plans with a friend to meet at the coffee shop because Jim was going to be out this evening and I knew it would be very, very hard to avoid cracking open one of his beers. Or, heading to a local bar and ordering a bottle of wine. She’s not here yet. She probably won’t show. Jim won’t be home for at least two hours. There’s still time. Tears are welling up in my already tear-tired eyes. And if it weren’t for the group of PTA moms squawking in the corner, I’d probably let them flow. Some days I simply hate being a woman and hormonal. It’s the current cause of my physical and emotional pain and some days I can’t get to my rubies and love songs place and it all hurts too, too much.
Today Jim and I were at dinner. He had a beer and I thought to myself “Man, I want a beer.” The next thought? “Well you can’t have one. Tough. Deal with it.” And I did. It was that simple. No crabbiness. No anger. No why me? (in a whiney voice)
I haven’t felt the way that I obviously felt while writing that passage in a long time…or at least it feels like along time. In reality, it’s been just 8 weeks? Crazy. How much better will I feel in another 8 weeks? I can’t even begin to imagine.
If my life and sobriety were like one of those fancy charts that fancy people use, it would feature a line trending UP.
awesome
just reading this… I’m so proud of you. After being anorexic for six years, I recovered a little over a year ago. Although obviously it is a different situation… it’s similar too, because either way it’s an addiction, with habits that are tough to break.
I’m glad you’re doing so well.
Such a positive trend you are channelling.
Personally, I struggle seriously with drinking as an addiction and with two daughters under three I know the time has come to change. I stop for like four days but then I find myself falling over drunk.
Anyway, will follow your growth as inspiration, and please follow me for same…
Yay! Good for you.
And if you ever need a fancy chart made, I’m your gal.
We had friends over this weekend and they got drunk on the porch, talking, telling stories, laughing hysterically. I felt like the most ‘left out’ person in the world, sipping on orange san pellegrino and watching them relax and pour beer down their throats.
I went to bed early and felt like crap.
The next morning I was up at the crack of dawn. I felt wonderful. My baby boy woke up soon after me and we spent the whole day playing. No puking, no headache, no crankiness…
You are doing an awesome job!
I thank each and every one of you for your kind words of support!
I love reading your blog. You are a wonderful inspiration and I know you will continue down your path successfully! I will continue to follow you so that I can see you succeed!
bravo!!!!